9 Weeks To Live
a death & rebirth initiation to save your life for the benefit of all beings
"What do you want? More than anything, deep in the heart of your being, what do you want?
If you surveyed your time on this earth from a deathbed, what would really matter to you?
What are the memories that would engender the peace of nothing essential left undone, a life well lived?” ~Luke Anderson
Practicing death while you are still alive is one of the most powerful ways to activate presence, ground alignment and awaken deeper gratitude for your life.
This 3-part initiation will support you in a safe, loving and potent container to bring your death closer as a direct path to fall more truly in love with your life.
Anyone who commits to the process can expect to receive deep gifts, and you'll leave with practices that you can continue to cultivate and grow into for the rest of your years
A glimpse at what previous participants shared about their experience:
“Some people only receive this gift if they're lucky right at the end of their life.”
“I've done a lot of retreat work of this sort, and this was by far the most impactful and interesting.”
“This nine weeks has forever changed my life.”
“Just gratitude for the container that you held in the wisdom that you brought through. Really beautiful. Really spot on.”
“I learned a lot about what I would call my true nature. I learned how to bring out this part of myself that I've been scared of for a really long time and I don't think I realized I was scared of showing it fully because I thought it would be too powerful.”
“The tools I've picked up have been immense and I can notice this in every day of my life”
“The container that you have brought out a lot of safety and camaraderie in the group. Your reflections all really resonated and pointed to the core, cutting through the stories.”
“I think my biggest takeaway is the value of bringing death into focus and what it means to live more fully into actually look at death closely. It's pretty clear the reasons why we fear death and this group helped change that. “
“I feel a sense of acceptance of the course of my life and when and how it'll end in a way that I never have before.”
“At first I thought, considering the topic was on death, that it would be kind of a downer subject, but it's actually been the opposite”
“I've done lots of different vipassana courses, and that gives me my daily practice. But there was a piece I was missing, because I was even using spiritual practices to run away, and I just feel like a whole person now. I'm good enough, I'm just part of a bigger whole, and it's helped me to actually become more powerful and become more of what I want.”
“I learned how to be comfortable with myself and who I am, what my role is here”
“I learned new tools and contemplations that I can actually already feel changing the trajectory of my life.”
“This it was a great experience, and I feel like I've come out of it a more reflective, more grounded person with somehow a better appreciation for these moments that I am living right now and these moments that will not be coming again.”
“I feel like I go through the day to day in a more full way. I can see that people respond to me differently. I feel like I've lived life more every single day, no matter what I've been doing.”
“This 9 weeks has been a true blessing. I feel immensely lighter and immensely more reclaimed with my self, my purpose and my heart”
“The clarity that has been arising and has landed is a godsend. It really feels like I have my life back.”
“I feel deeply inspired and excited. I want to live bigger. I want to live bolder. I want to get messy. I definitely feel like such a better person from this.”
“Baggage that I have been carrying for so long has been lifted. Gratitude, and more gratitude, and more gratitude. This helped me to go deep into every part of myself that I was really avoiding feeling for so long.”
“These 9 weeks has been really impeccable. I don’t always have the experience that a group can be held so continuously well over time without some part of me feeling like we’ve lost the thread. So props for that, props for keeping it fresh every time and inspiring.”
“I very much recommend to take this course. Be ready to take a deep dive. If you’re ready for this , if you’re ready to really work on your perspective of life and death, I recommend this with my whole heart.”
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This course could be a good fit for you if:
You are committed to bringing your gifts through, in the way only you can do, for humanity and all of life on this earth
You are someone who has others counting on you to show up and be steady and you know that in order to do this you need to be even more anchored in your integrity, your inspiration, and your capacity
You value trustworthy containers and deep practices to help you ground, integrate, and be accountable to your insights
You want to harvest the most important medicine from the death and rebirth of any transitions you are going through
“A love has opened me up in ways that I didn't think was possible”
You are committed to bringing your gifts through, in the way only you can do, for humanity and all of life on this earth
You are someone who has others counting on you to show up and be steady and you know that in order to do this you need to be even more anchored in your integrity, your inspiration, and your capacity
You value trustworthy containers and deep practices to help you ground, integrate, and be accountable to your insights
You want to harvest the most important medicine from the death and rebirth of any transitions you are going through
“A love has opened me up in ways that I didn't think was possible”
Each week I will be sharing potent practices and focused mentoring in support of all the above.
Death is an honest mirror which clarifies what is ready to be laid to rest, and what is most essential to cultivate and share.
An indicator of whether death has been fully met, is the bone-deep recognition of the preciousness of each moment. This shows up as presence, gratitude, and the wholeness that comes from fully meeting and accepting the broken open broken heart.
On a personal level I have been truly impacted by these practices, the foundational insights they provide, and the motivation they bring to have that clarity take root in my actions.
I am grateful to the teachers that have supported me in integrating these ways into the fabric of my life over the last 33 years of practice and am passionate about bringing these initiations to anyone sincere and ready to deepen in their medicine for the benefit of all beings
“Your guidance has fundamentally altered the way in which I experience the world, and stimulated in me a sense of greater responsibility to connect with others to inspire change on a greater scale”.
Who would you be if you incarnated fully, aligned with your deepest passions, walking wholeheartedly in the world, honoring your yearnings, with nothing held back?
What are you here to give?
Death is an honest mirror which clarifies what is ready to be laid to rest, and what is most essential to cultivate and share.
An indicator of whether death has been fully met, is the bone-deep recognition of the preciousness of each moment. This shows up as presence, gratitude, and the wholeness that comes from fully meeting and accepting the broken open broken heart.
On a personal level I have been truly impacted by these practices, the foundational insights they provide, and the motivation they bring to have that clarity take root in my actions.
I am grateful to the teachers that have supported me in integrating these ways into the fabric of my life over the last 33 years of practice and am passionate about bringing these initiations to anyone sincere and ready to deepen in their medicine for the benefit of all beings
“Your guidance has fundamentally altered the way in which I experience the world, and stimulated in me a sense of greater responsibility to connect with others to inspire change on a greater scale”.
Who would you be if you incarnated fully, aligned with your deepest passions, walking wholeheartedly in the world, honoring your yearnings, with nothing held back?
What are you here to give?
I lead 9 weeks to live both one-on-one and in groups (men's groups and all gender groups).
If you would like to do this one-on-one please reach out via my contact form here.
Dates for the Fall 2025 9 week groups are below
Part One:
A 2 hour video call once a week for 4 weeks ~ Group discussion, guided meditations, practices., and personalized mentoring on each call.
Part Two:
Ceremony ~ Midway through our 9-week journey, we’ll be meeting in-person for a 2 night retreat in Northern California, where you can directly experience the mystical gift of your life and release what no longer serves you.
Part Three:
Four more weekly video calls. Deep Integration, continued discussion and individual support. Practices to help ground your insights and bring your gifts through to the world, in your daily life, and in your relationships.
To be eligible for this group, it is important that you for sure attend the first zoom call, the ceremony weekend, and the majority of the rest of the zoom calls. If you can't attend one of the zooms you'll be asked to leave a voice memo update to the group thread (which will be on signal app). The weekly zooms will be recorded so you'd be able to view and catch up with practices if you miss one.
If this process stirs your curiosity please reach via my contact form (link here) to let me know your interest and I’ll respond to set up an intro call to discuss whether this could be a match for you.
Currently accepting sign-ups for 2 'Nine Weeks To Live' groups beginning October 2025.
What you’ll receive in this course:
~an intimate group of courageous souls to be on this journey with
~a powerful 48 hour in-person retreat that will give you many gifts of wisdom and insight
~16 hours of calls which include guided meditations, dynamic group process and inquiry, ritual, and one-on-one mentoring for each participant every week
~Direct text access to me for support during the 9 weeks
~Liberating questions and profound practices to live into for the rest of your life
“I have more tools in the toolbox, more wisdom, a wider viewpoint of what I'm doing with my life. Yeah, I couldn’t recommend it enough.”
Payment plans available to any who need, and 1-2 partial scholarships offered for each course
GROUP 1 Oct-Dec 2025 Men's group dates and meeting times:
Wednesday Oct 15: zoom 6-8pm pst
Wednesday Oct 22: zoom 6-8pm pst
Monday Oct 27: zoom 6-8pm pst
In person ceremony in northern california Oct 31 to Nov 2
Wednesday Nov 5: zoom 6-8pm pst
Wednesday Nov 12: zoom 6-8pm pst
Wednesday Nov 19: zoom 6-8pm pst
Wednesday Nov 26: no meeting thanksgiving week
Wednesday Dec 3: zoom 6-8pm pst
Wednesday Dec 10: zoom 6-8pm pst
Group 1 contribution: Earlybird $2550 if total paid in full by 10/8
After 10/8 contribution is $2800
2. GROUP 2 Oct-Dec 2025 All gender group dates:
Tuesday Oct 21: 6-8pm zoom 6-8pm pst
Tues Oct 28: 6-8pm zoom 6-8pm pst
Tues Nov 4: 6-8pm zoom 6-8pm pst
In person ceremony in Northern California Nov 14-16
Tues Nov 18: 6-8pm zoom 6-8pm pst
Tues Nov 25: 6-8pm zoom 6-8pm pst
Tues Dec 2: 6-8pm zoom 6-8pm pst
Tues Dec 9: 6-8pm zoom 6-8pm pst
Tues Dec 16: 6-8pm zoom 6-8pm pst
Group 2 contribution: Earlybird $2550 if total paid in full by 10/14
After 10/14 contribution is $2800
If you would like to do this one-on-one please reach out via my contact form here.
Dates for the Fall 2025 9 week groups are below
Part One:
A 2 hour video call once a week for 4 weeks ~ Group discussion, guided meditations, practices., and personalized mentoring on each call.
Part Two:
Ceremony ~ Midway through our 9-week journey, we’ll be meeting in-person for a 2 night retreat in Northern California, where you can directly experience the mystical gift of your life and release what no longer serves you.
Part Three:
Four more weekly video calls. Deep Integration, continued discussion and individual support. Practices to help ground your insights and bring your gifts through to the world, in your daily life, and in your relationships.
To be eligible for this group, it is important that you for sure attend the first zoom call, the ceremony weekend, and the majority of the rest of the zoom calls. If you can't attend one of the zooms you'll be asked to leave a voice memo update to the group thread (which will be on signal app). The weekly zooms will be recorded so you'd be able to view and catch up with practices if you miss one.
If this process stirs your curiosity please reach via my contact form (link here) to let me know your interest and I’ll respond to set up an intro call to discuss whether this could be a match for you.
Currently accepting sign-ups for 2 'Nine Weeks To Live' groups beginning October 2025.
What you’ll receive in this course:
~an intimate group of courageous souls to be on this journey with
~a powerful 48 hour in-person retreat that will give you many gifts of wisdom and insight
~16 hours of calls which include guided meditations, dynamic group process and inquiry, ritual, and one-on-one mentoring for each participant every week
~Direct text access to me for support during the 9 weeks
~Liberating questions and profound practices to live into for the rest of your life
“I have more tools in the toolbox, more wisdom, a wider viewpoint of what I'm doing with my life. Yeah, I couldn’t recommend it enough.”
Payment plans available to any who need, and 1-2 partial scholarships offered for each course
GROUP 1 Oct-Dec 2025 Men's group dates and meeting times:
Wednesday Oct 15: zoom 6-8pm pst
Wednesday Oct 22: zoom 6-8pm pst
Monday Oct 27: zoom 6-8pm pst
In person ceremony in northern california Oct 31 to Nov 2
Wednesday Nov 5: zoom 6-8pm pst
Wednesday Nov 12: zoom 6-8pm pst
Wednesday Nov 19: zoom 6-8pm pst
Wednesday Nov 26: no meeting thanksgiving week
Wednesday Dec 3: zoom 6-8pm pst
Wednesday Dec 10: zoom 6-8pm pst
Group 1 contribution: Earlybird $2550 if total paid in full by 10/8
After 10/8 contribution is $2800
2. GROUP 2 Oct-Dec 2025 All gender group dates:
Tuesday Oct 21: 6-8pm zoom 6-8pm pst
Tues Oct 28: 6-8pm zoom 6-8pm pst
Tues Nov 4: 6-8pm zoom 6-8pm pst
In person ceremony in Northern California Nov 14-16
Tues Nov 18: 6-8pm zoom 6-8pm pst
Tues Nov 25: 6-8pm zoom 6-8pm pst
Tues Dec 2: 6-8pm zoom 6-8pm pst
Tues Dec 9: 6-8pm zoom 6-8pm pst
Tues Dec 16: 6-8pm zoom 6-8pm pst
Group 2 contribution: Earlybird $2550 if total paid in full by 10/14
After 10/14 contribution is $2800
To confirm your spot for either of these 9 week groups use the link below to pay a non-refundable deposit of $700
Balance will be due 2 weeks before the course start date unless you are requesting a payment plan.
If you pay your deposit during the Earlybird (by 2 weeks before the group start date), payment plans will be the $700 deposit plus $462.50/month for 4 months. If pay your deposit after earlybird ends, payment plans will be the $700 deposit plus $525/month for 4 months.
Click here to make payment where you can pay either with paypal balance, bank account or credit/debit card.
If you need a different way to pay or would like to apply for a partial scholarship reach out here
Balance will be due 2 weeks before the course start date unless you are requesting a payment plan.
If you pay your deposit during the Earlybird (by 2 weeks before the group start date), payment plans will be the $700 deposit plus $462.50/month for 4 months. If pay your deposit after earlybird ends, payment plans will be the $700 deposit plus $525/month for 4 months.
Click here to make payment where you can pay either with paypal balance, bank account or credit/debit card.
If you need a different way to pay or would like to apply for a partial scholarship reach out here
